My mind swells up in confusion... Why am I confused? Why can't I just get the picture? My head lightly falls as it gently hits my arm... I feel the sensation of my eyelashes flicker up and down on my arm... As I'm drifting off, my eyelashes pierce together, a sea of words envelope me... The words being spoken out loud, but seems far from a distance. Something is blocking, and i feel deafness, why can't I understand? Why does it seem all lost...sometimes you think you've got it all figured out... But it's more than that... my goal is to go beyond all this, and wake up, snap out of it, this is reality!
15 comments:
ummm... so u really want to know?
i told you.. its what surrounds me...the situation is me... this is how i feel .. guess well discuss it some other time if i can even speak!
Esther darling, this is all turning you into quite the writer!
Man, you sound like me my first year in seminary. I wish I would have went without any expectations, but the real problem for me was craving Emes, Chassidus, etc.
You will get there.
Smile, even if you don't feel it. Sometimes, we have to go straight to the Levushim/garments to affect our insides.
Try to enjoy Israel and learning as much as you can, without getting caught up in the very distracting and seemingly (but not so) neccessary exteriors.
My thoughts are with you. :)
I'll see you soon, dancing by the 3rd Temple.
It's going to be so awesome.
Love,
Mimi
Cool pic! Feel better you express your feelings very well. Internal struggles can be so much harder than external struggles. I say so from my own experiences.
esther,
i didnt want to post what i wanted to say online, so please refer to your email to pick up the post.
thanks,
your friend that never calls.
i knew i shouldve warned you bout lod..
its the hashish center.. but looks like uve figured that out all on ur own.. heh heh
jk!
Love your blog name!
esther darling
i haven't spoken to you in yrs and i feel so bad. wats up with u girl??? k i'll send an email personally to u and i'll get round to calling u soon, things here are pretty hectic with weddings and all
miss u
hey chana!!! miss ya tons..!! send a present back with yael!! call me
hey mim...thanks i guess it a compliment if it coming from you!!
socialworker... thank you... i think ill get over this real soon...
annonymouse... thanks hun i got it !! ill refer back to an email
yonit... yp figured it all out on my own!! iguess ill live
lakewood.... welcom to my blog thakns!!
what's wrong?
open up... mmmm... what's wrong? ... acutaly not quite sure maybe its just seminary... didnt ge to the core yet!
hey pimples. thanks for stopping by on my blog, nice comment
got a new post too
so when u feel so shushu just go on a walk in blogfger world till you feel better.
good idea?
hope everything works out
Esther!! long time no speak but itsnt it crz bout rivky :) :)
anyhow give me a call :)
If you need anything at all, you can ask me, k Esther?
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