So... Last night we were supposed to have this guy fabreng with us but last minute he cancelled we find out one of our teachers is coming to fabreng,and I personaly do not like him.
moving on were sitting at ourweekly fabrengen and the Rabbi walks in and the usual were all Talking and making as if he wasn't there...
He speaks up and says
"Girls what is a fabrengen?"
a girl replies .... "Its when you open up" and girls just gave the regular answers. Anyway so he goes on and asks a question... Does anyone want to be by yechidus with the Rebbe? So some said yes I wish... Others said no I would be so scared ....
then he goes on and starts saying how we have to be real.. we have to be hoest with ourselves... we have to face the truth!He asked us when the last time we were truthfull to ourselves...?
anyway we have a long discution and he stops and says "girls do you want to sing?" so were like no we just want to continue. So he said girls do me a favor im gonna leave the room and ur gonna sing a niggun and ur gonna sing this niggun till you feel like ur in a certain place and u feel like ur there, and you facing yourselves....
Ayayayayaya.... The niggun goes on and it starts of with 2 people singing, then 3 ... eventualy it was most of us and its getting louder and louder and higher and higher...
I close my eyes and think so hard , I picture myself in a forest standing alone in the rain ... And its pouring and I'm singing this niggun lower and then I start singing it louder and im just standing in one place and i'm not going anywhere... im not moving. As I start singing the niggun louder I start walking faster and faster and eventualy I'm running... I bound to find myself in front of 770 waiting to be the next one in line and the door knob is turning and my heart stops....
REALITY JUST HIT...
25 comments:
esther i'm so proud
love u
coming to my wedding darling??
esther,
WOW!
your friend who never calls.
chana i dont even know the date.. and i wish i was i wish i wish ... hey maybe ur wedding with be in yerushalim!
my friend who never calls...
i miss you dear...
Esther!!!! I was waiting for that good inspiration coming from your end of Israel!!! That's the way a person in Sem should be talking.. not the depressing piece that's been sitting on your blog for so long.. I'm glad I didn't have to write it!.. :-).. Thanks for your e-..
You tell a great story lol.
well esther darling
the date is Feb 6th
and i'm setting a seat for you
so u bettter be there
cant wait to dance with u
love chana
woah. I feel it. May I ask which Rabbi? I miss that place... Rabbi's and all...
social worker ... thanks...
chana i wish i would be there ... you have no idea i told u to wait for me till i come home!!!! but too bad on me
wandering...its a good feeling let me tell you ... just hope it will last...it was rabbi deren!!!
Woof... just reading this makes me feel like i was there, woops i was, but i came in the middle thanks for the chazara!
Oh, man, Esther....that was a good farbrengen!
Esther, hon. You gotta update this thing. If I don't speak to you at least I can check this out and see what's doing! luv ya! be well!
love always and forever,
me
ok sure thing.. i just dont have much to write ... more to come soon dont run away!!!
you know I would never run away from you....why are you even saying such a thing! jk...i love you!
ESTHER!!! I MISS YOU!!!
whos my dearest friend? and anonymous its very hard to miss you.... mi ze?
Esther I am insulted that you don't know who I am....I always told you I was your dearest friend....no matter what. How could you forget? I love you, Esther!
chanale? nechama? dude ive got a lot of dearest friedns!! love you to
well, you can't remember who i am and you've just lost one of ur dearest friends......goodbye, Esther.
I AM CRSUHED!!! u bettter not have meant that.... take it back NOW!
No-I always mean what I say. I said I was your dearest friend and I meant that. BUt you seem to have forgotten who I am and....yeah...goodbye. Have a nice life. Good luck dealing with your issues without me.
ummm..... IM lost... cal me today
Wow.... lol...
I guess I can kinda relate.
esther darling.!!!!!! 23 comments..preety impressive ;)
lol... ur the 24 and im the 25 thakns!!! hun miss you
incredibly intense...
gud for you that you let go and got there...
we all need to more often.
a real nice piece to bump into.
i kinda miss sem!
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