Ok so wow .. I cant believe im leaving in a few days to The holy land!
I've never been there before, therefore I don't know what to expect? last time someone told me about Israel I just imagined it so amazing...
like ur walking down the streets
you see people on camel's ...
you see people riding horses ...
and there is music playing in the streets and
you see kids are dancing and smiling...
you see everyone in a circle dancing at the kotel friday night...
and my list went on and on....
But I don't think that's what its like now??
after hearing all the news that's been going on in Israel and all the war...Now all
you see is people being killed
you hear the bombs from your front portch
you see kids crying cuz there father just died in the war...
you see a baby with blood dripping down her face...
you see soldiers risking there lives for us everyday...
you see an Arab stabbing a knife in to someone's stomach...
It's painfull seeing and hearing all these things ....
I'm nervous... Am I ready to put myself out there?
I'm pertrified ...What if I hear the bombs?
I'm shaking... Why am I so ...
I'm scared...I'm scared of loosing my friends ...
I'm nervous...To come back home after I go...
I'm scared ...to get of the plane and dont know where to go....
I'm shaking...What if i get sick? who will take care of me?
Why am I so scared?
imagine Me alone in Israel?
I mean I did it before ,when I left home for 2 years I went to new York all alone? so why am I so scared to go away again?
I mean Its not just a Bus ride home that everytime I get in to a bad mood I can just hop on the bus and I'm home in a few hours...
I mean I'll be missing a lot of action that's gonna be happening I"yh my 2 sisters will be having babies... It's my last cuzzins bar mitzva ill be missing... Do I want to miss all that to go to Israel?
I mean when will I ever have a chance to go to seminary again?
I know what im doing is right , right?
so am I ready to listen to all the rules?
am I ready to learn all day and sit in a desk?
am I ready to just listen to the teachers?
am I ready to be the best I can be?
am I ready to reach my goals?
am I ready to get inspired and let them inspire me?
am I ready to give it all I've got?
am I ready to change the world?
so now its all up to me .... It's in my hands....
I am ready to listen to the rules!
I am ready to leanrn all day and sit in a desk!
I am ready to listen to the teachers!
I am ready to be the best I can be!
I am ready to reach my final goals!
I am ready to get inspired and let them inspire me
I am ready to give it all I've got
I am ready to change the world
Sooo.... Basically I AM READY!
see you all in Jerusalem!!!! Have a great year... I hope to have some internet acces there ... and ill soon let u know wat my number is!!!
i'll miss u all soo much!
14 comments:
on ya esther! glad you came to that decision - go out there and make us proud! LUV U
Dear Esther Kadosh,
Israel commends you. Israel applauds you. We are anxiously awaiting your arrival in Our Land. Upon your arrival, look out for an entourage bearing the Israeli flag, with myself at the lead, ready to greet you with open arms.
"Bizchut Haolim Nigael Mehagalut"
Mr. Ehud Olmert, PM
Good luck and don't be so worried! Its gonna be the best year of your life!! Seminary is awesome... specially if you are going to Lod... where I have some personal bias ;). Just go with the flow and let yourself soak it all in... Gd bless!
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Ehud you're such an idiot! How dare you sign Esther's blog!!!
esther i wish you the best of luck in the Holy Land this year... Ill tell u the same thing i tell all my friends...
this yr is an opportunity of a lifetime. some girls will take advantage of their off-time, and some will take advantage of their class-time. i bless you that u should have the strength to live both up.
let it all in. let it all inspire you... just my advice - dont fall too in love with the land, bc one day ull wake up and realize how corrupt it has become by the way ppl treat it and your heart will be broken...
G'luck! N'siah Tova!
and whoever posted as ehud...
thats funny.
thakns guys ...
chana: ill make u proud ill miss u tons!!
ehud: umm quite funny, cuz i had no clue who you were till i asked s/o who ehud was but.. ye thakns.. ill see you at the airport
wandering: just nervouse as u can tell.. but ill get over it and have the most amazaing year of my life iyh!!
yoniqua: thakns for words of comfort, and i will let it all in g-d willnig and have the best year ever... see u in yerushalim
HEY ESTHER!! I'M IN!! =)LOTS OF LUCK! I'M SURE IT"S GONNA BE A GR8 YEAR!! LIVE IT UP!!!
hey listen, pimples. which flight are you going on? email me- thinkalert@hotmail.com- i think we're going to meet!
WE HATE TO SEE YOU GO, WE HATE TO SEE YOU GO, BECAUSE WE KNOW WE LOVE YOU SO, WE HATE TO SEE YOU GO!
I'll be waiting for you when you come home for pesach..
Ahem... your fan club expands.. Guess it's a good thing you're going to Israel. Basically I wanted to tell you i'm missing you already!
essttaa! eretz yisroel is amazing beyond words...it's the place we all long for in our hearts-even if we're not connected to that longing, it's still there.
i'll be thinking of you,
mwa
lots of love
eli
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