well this week 2 things happend...
#1 someone i know passed away # 2 someone i know had triplets....
how is someone seposed to feel??
why is this all hapening? how does G-d expect me to be happy?
Everyday something else... Everyday someone esle gets hurt, while somone just got engaged or had a baby...
should i cry or be happy? how can u be happy when these things are happening in the world? on the other hand, someone jsut had triplets how can u be sad?
everytime i loose someone i just think sometimes that one day it might be me and its a really scary thought that scares me and sometimes i just dont sleep thiking about all these horrible things. why cant G-d do something good? why did he deserve to die? why does anyone deserve to die? its painfull when u loose someone and u dont know where to put urself... i dont know how people just carry on ... but on the other hand where will u end up if not? wat will happen to u if u just cry all day? well sometimes i just feel like doing that and i dont care wat people tell me.
but again its always the good people this happends to why them? why not me? why not anyone else? i can sit and cry all day but i know i wont get anywhere ... and i just gotta be strong but i cant... i keep fighting withmyslef...i have constant struggles... i cry to my friends they cry to me and we jsut sit and cry.. and i try calming her down... but i'm not calm myslef...
when will this all end?
("sonia lansky" i just want you to know im sitting here crying and thiking of u...and i dont want to leave u eventhough we are going to diffrent seminarys, and u might go to college and i might end up on shlichus or married.... or wtvr g-d has in plans for me and u and i just want you to know i promise ill be here for you forever and i'm really really gonna miss u soo much and ill never ever forget u!!
4 comments:
u seem to just......
why dont u think of meaningful things that interest you and share them.
im sure you have a lot to contribute - lets hear it!
sorry i didnt get to finish the rest of my "mixed emotions"
sorry again too much is going on i dont know where to start and nah i dont have much to share...
i jsut want to say that everything turns out for the best. we may not know what lies ahead of us but for now, we just have to live one day at a time...
remember, im here for u no matter what!k? k! ;)
really nice change in post...
i know the feelings ur experiencing, i can relate, unfortunately.
this is what ill tell you - first of all, he is the kind of person who would only want you to be happy. smile thru ur tears if tears is helping u deal. he would want you to not only refuse to cry all day, but to amp-up ur life even more.
ur doing a good job, even expressing ur emotions, so im sure ull be ok. take care...
peace n love
live by it. he did.
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